Emotions of a Cake Decorator

There is a list of emotions that happens when I do cakes that are not dummies.

 Before I bake them I get extremely excited and happy to do them. All the ideas start flowing, I plan every little detail out how I am going to do what. Then comes the baking part. After the batter is made and in the oven that is when the anxiety sets in. Thoughts pop in my head like will it turn out? will it even bake? am I even capable of doing this? All of this self doubt happens.

I guess it's because I strive for perfection on each cake the I make. Its my name going out there and I want this to be perfect. My heart and soul goes into every cake I make. They are like my children, that are meant to be eaten, but minor details. I have a lot of self doubt.

After the cake is out of the oven a relief set in. Seeing the cake in its perfection calms the doubt for now.

After it cools and is inspected to make sure that it is still amazing I stack it. Taking lot of time and effort to make sure that it is completely level. Nothing's worse than an unstable cake that's leaning.

Then the anxiety returns when the frosting stage sets in. I'm ok with frosting but I always get nervous to make sure the sides are parallel and the top level. Not to mention trying to get it as smooth as possible to look like fondant. Which I am amazing at. Fondant is the only thing that I am 100% confident with.

After it's covered in fondant or just iced. I have a little moment of relief, if it looks good. Which I'm told it always does, but I always find at least one or two things I think are bad but no one ever notices. The way I look at it is, The day I don't find I mistake or something to work on is the day that I stop striving for perfection.

Then I start to decorate which gives me the most joy because I know the hard parts are behind me. I really do love to decorate it gives me a feeling of accomplishment and happiness. You can always find me smiling unless the cake is giving me attitude then I am frowning but that rarely ever happens.

Yes, cakes do have a personality; each one is different. Most are very pleasant but you will always get that rotten egg that just doesn't want to cooperate. It tries your patients and your sanity but in the end they are the most magnificent work you have ever done because you try your hardest.

Though I do that with every cake I bake. I feel like each is an extension of my self. I strive to show that passion to every one and hopefully they will appropriate it as much as it do.